She is trying to find the words. The woman and her camera crew are asking for them. They have promised anonymity and money in exchange for her words.
The ruined neighborhood behind her is obscured by the night. The pavement beneath her has long since crumbled to grit, so she must stand still or risk snapping her heels. The camera is close, but focused below the face. She feels violated though they have not touched her. Actually, they have been more nice to her than anyone has in a long time.
She does not have long.
How do you feel?
She pats her painted fingers on her thigh. "I am not happy. I do not like the things I do. I do not like my body anymore. Because I am not happy with what I do. I have no money. No paper. So I cannot run away. I have no money so I cannot run away. I promised to pay. I have to finish this."
The people who brought you here, how much do you owe them?
She whimpers. "It, it is not easy -- that much I will say."
We have heard it is usually near 30,000.
"Some goes up. Some goes down."
And you will pay them?
"Yes. I must pay. There has been agreement. So I must pay." She bows her head away from another passing pair of headlights.
How much do you get from a client?
"5. 10. Sometimes 20. Some goes up. Sometimes 50 if we go to a hotel or a home."
Have you told anyone?
"I have no paper. They cannot help me."
And your family?
"It is too much dangerous. My family cannot know. I love them so much and I do not want them to stress. I don't want them to suffer. I love them so much. Let me just say..."
She is trying to find the words. She thinks back. She has searched for them in the pockets of still bodies. She has prayed for them under thrusting weight. She has felt for them in the dark between the sequins on borrowed dresses. She has promised them to the other girls. And to the woman and her camera crew.
"...I am like the Jesus Christ. I carry the cross for them."
The woman and her shaken camera crew look at one another. She has finally found some words. She has earned gratitude and pro tem sympathy and money. Enough money that she can take tonight off. A night off that she has not had in a long time.